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Smile in place,
Laughter always ready to be unleashed,
I am fine.
Concealing most of the pain,
Forcing the tears to stay internal,
Controlling the limp,
Swallowing the screams,
I am okay.
Day turns to night,
The dam of tears overflows,
As the pillow eats the screams alive.
Yearning for an escape,
Stopping myself from seeking out the only salvation from the pain,
Constantly repeating words said throughout the day,
Maybe if said often enough I could come to believe in those lies.
Unnoticed TortureAs the weather changes,
Leaves become fragile,
Autumn has came,
To ruin everything that was.
Falling silently due to slight winds,
Crumbling at the lightest of touches,
Having no where to escape to,
Leaves become lifeless,
Lose the will to fight,
As the torture carries on.
Losing everything that was once cherished,
Leaves begin to wonder,
Will spring come once again?
Lose Yourself To The MusicClear your thoughts,
Cease your daily torture,
When life gets overwhelming,
Just follow the beat.
"Never give up
Cheer up, toward your dreams, never give up
Get up, get up, you can do it
Wake up, wake up
Don’t worry, everything will be fine, never give up
Because it’s you, it’s you, believe in yourself
Never give up."
When the undesired,
Escapes from your iron-willed prison,
Just sing along,
As your tears leave a puddle at your feet.
"I don’t know why all of our
Hell-like memories are still in my head
I will remember all of our past days,
How you played me
I completely changed
Because of you
I don’t smile anymore
I don’t care about love anymore,
My heart is all crushed
I tried my best to
Forget about you."
As why, why, why???
Escapes from your mouth,
Reminisce about your hurtful past,
Think about your sorrowful present,
As the heart-wrenching melody,
slowly invades your damaged heart.
"I think of each memory that I should forget
No EscapeFlesh rotting,
There is no escape.
Everything is bazaar,
What is going on?
Lost on its own accord.
Attempting to elude,
The torment on the body and mind.
Though it is no use,
It will forever be attached to thy every moment,
Until thy heartbeat ceases.
DespairThunder deafens ears,
Wild, out of control,
Abusing the ocean floor.
Hesitantly a pair of feet slip into the water,
Seeking rest from the chaos all around.
Desperately trying to get out.
Struggling, oxygen escaping,
There is no way to survive.
While your soul abandons you.
Coming to your senses,
Noticing the tears staining your cheeks and clothes,
Having no choice but to bare with the pain for another day..
It's time to get out of bed.
RememberCrying heard in the distance,
Sounds of screams begin to invade,
Bringing a sense of urgency.
Sprinting, running as fast as your legs can carry you to help the unfortunate soul,
Yet you can't catch up to the desperate cries of help.
Suddenly falling, clutching your head,
As the screams grow louder,
As the crying turns into sobs of despair.
Realizing your throat is torn inside,
Your eyes are inflamed,
Once again believing the lies your mind has told to make you remember.
Gently swinging back and forth,
The branches move with the wind.
Shaking in the swift ferocious attack,
The only option is to stand firm.
Afraid of all the noise,
Leaves begin to shiver in fear from the sound.
Screaming at the agonizing pain,
Lightning begins to strike,
Piercing every single branch,
Until they lay broken,
Completely shattered on the ground.
Beginning to quiet down,
The storm begins to fade,
To wait for another chance to attack,
when you find yourself
in a crowd of familiar faces,
the struggle for breath
You Will PayI can taste the fear upon you:
The cold sweat in your palms,
The eyes that dart at shadows,
And the lips that are forced into a tightened smile.
You wait beneath the blankets,
Shivering each night as the anxiety rises.
You gasp at the slightest sounds and quiver...
For you are afraid of the curse that comes.
In your mind you see what you have done to me.
You watched as you ripped my tongue
And stole the very voice from my soul!
But even if I am without a body,
Even if I can no longer hold a knife to your throat.
Fear alone is enough for me to silence you,
And I will NEVER allow you to be heard!
Inner DemonI harbour a monster,
It lingers deep within.
It wants to escape me,
To tear free from my skin.
It gnaws at my insides,
And hopes that I'll give in.
It works hard to tempt me,
To lead me into sin.
It wants me to suffer
To feel its wretched sting.
But I stand true and strong,
I will not let it win.
The nights are the hardest,
In bed I pray and sing
To the Lord God above
To rid me of this thing.
But instead it remains,
My monster still within.
MazeLost within myself
Looking for a way out
This cannot end like this
Trapped in my own mind
A maze with no exit
I keep running and running
But I always end up
In the same place where I began
RustThe dwelling rust
swells this hollow garden
and somewhere in the yard
a tire swing goes flat
against the skyline.
It chokes the autumn light
in the silo,
the crush of
mums and ragged berries
It bubbles in the percolator
steeping still life
in the caul
of early morning -
the red-brown crumbs
of breakfast toast and jam
growing ghosts upon
And deep inside
I still hear you waking up
the soft salute
of morning voices
stirring the wind
outside my window.
Slaves of the deadSlaves of the dead
to find another land,
but they couldn't stand the desert and the frost.
Some died, some returned.
For those who returned
the masters had prepared a special punishment.
Their memory was wiped off.
They became thieves,
without ever understanding why.
They just felt it was the right thing to do.
Red Light ReduxHaving a truck
Paint me red
Is the strangest feeling
I’ve ever felt.
I’ve seen myself melt away
Like a mid-summer’s ice cream
While my personality screams
To be noticed. Every wall that once
Stood between me and reality
I am finally free.
Until they strapped me down
And sewed back my hands to my head.
My heart to my mouth.
My legs to the earth.
The taste of freedom
Rests gently on my tongue,
And I’ve been trying
To no avail.
why?Why do you wear black?
Because I like to.
Just because I do!
Why do you seem so sad?
Because that's how I feel on the inside.
But why is that?
Because I can feel my insides die.
Why do you cut your arms?
It's from the past when my life was full of horrors.
Why do you hide them then?
Because I don't like to see them.
I ask why do you need to know?
Why do you care?
Just leave me alone!!!
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A two-time Community Volunteer for the deviantART Related category, Anne is well-known as a positive, helpful force. She is the community's resident expert when it comes to CSS (Cascading Style Sheets), and her personal gallery offers a wide variety of tutorials for new and experienced coders alike. In addition, each winter she hosts a calendar project encouraging members to create Journal designs for all to use, bringing more creativity to the community.
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